I Became an Eating Machine with a Loathsome Attitude

Four months after my allogeneic bone marrow transplant, I left Stanford to build a new cancer-fee life. Now I had to go into my local lab three times a week for blood work to monitor my progress.

In checking my computer for results of my blood test today, my liver function tests—indicators of liver injury—panic me. They are more than twenty times normal. Is this a meltdown? The Chernobyl of my liver? Three Mile Island? Strangely enough, I feel pretty good.

It’s after 7 p.m. I leave an urgent phone message for the on-call oncologist at Stanford. I pace and wonder if I should be in an ambulance or checking into the ER. I phone my friend, Gael, an RN, and ask her what to do. She demurs, “I hardly have a thumbnail of information about liver function; in fact, I barely have a hangnail of knowledge.”

I laugh out loud. “Well, if my liver gives out while we’re on the phone, I will have died laughing.”

My husband, Dan, wants to take me to the hospital but I convince him to wait until we hear from Stanford. Getting a call back, the oncologist assures me I’m not dying on the spot but must go to Kaiser tomorrow for more testing.

Chronic Graft versus Host Disease

After blood work the next day, I get the diagnosis: Chronic Graft versus Host Disease (GVHD), a disorder that commonly develops in donor-transplant patients after day 100. Twelve to fifteen percent of patients die from Chronic GVHD, not the most terrifying odds. I’d faced much worse and gone way too far to be knocked down now.

Along with the alarming liver counts, white, lacy ulcerations cover the inside of my mouth, another sure sign of GVHD. Treatment is Prednisone.

 I Am a Harpy—Eating Us Out of House and Home

 Prednisone is used for a huge variety of illnesses and disorders, and—almost miraculously—cures or greatly improves many dire and more mundane conditions. Reaction to Prednisone depends on the dosage, with higher doses causing more severe side effects. Because my liver functions are so out-of-whack, I’m started on 80 mg per day. Having no previous experience with the drug, I have no expectation of side effects or what this dose means. Within a couple of days, 80 mg of Prednisone daily has turned me into an eating machine with a loathsome attitude. I cannot stop myself from biting Dan’s head off every time he walks into the room. I am eating us out of house and home and nasty and short tempered to boot. But the white spots inside my mouth are disappearing.

Hardly able to stand myself, I decide to read up on the side effects of Prednisone, which include: weight gain (no kidding), hypertension, diabetes, insomnia, moon face, depression, anxiety, sexual dysfunction, female facial hair growth, balding—Wait a minute, that’s not fair—osteoporosis or loss of calcium in bones, fatigue, body aches, and sagging skin, among other dreadful effects. Great. Just great.

I become very annoyed with my doctor; not an unexpected response since I am furious with the entire world. I struggle through a week of hell. The next liver function test is still elevated but has dropped steeply. I’ve been through enough. I’ll taper the Prednisone myself. Still very bad tempered, I’m not going to ask anyone and be told no. A month later, I’ve tapered myself down to 10 mg per day. I am reconciled with the world, and Dan, and have gotten my face out of the refrigerator.

Another week, I take myself off Prednisone entirely. My liver function tests are near normal and the white spots in my mouth don’t return. However, not one of my doctors said, “Gee, your liver functions are looking good, why don’t we taper you off the Prednisone?” I doubt that my docs have ever been on daily doses of 80 mg of Prednisone for weeks at a time. Otherwise, maybe, they would know what I’ve been suffering. Alright, they deal with life and death issues daily, so maybe my bad attitude or gluttony isn’t the most pressing item on their agendas.

Where Is the Common Sense?

I’ve experienced both sides of the drug-dose calamity: the catastrophically too rapid taper of dexamethasone that led to a near-psychotic break and the non-existent-taper of Prednisone that threatened to do the same. Where is the common sense in this? And beyond caring for what the patient is going through, there are the economics of these oversights to consider. Untold numbers of ER and urgent care visits could be avoided if drug dosages and resultant side effects were better managed, perhaps just by a phone call from a nurse or pharmacist a couple of days after a prescription was started. A simple, direct outreach call does not strike me as rocket science.

Okay, I’ll get off of my soap box now. Please don’t go through what I did. Call someone on your health care team and get your dosage under control. Stay strong. Be well.


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